will this crush go away?

why does this always happen? i like someone and either i am just a friend,  they don't like me, or they want something that i would only give if i were in a relationship. any way i look at it i'm screwed. i swear that i am going to be the little old lady at the end of your street with ten cats. 

if i like a guy things tend to get more complicated than they should. maybe i expect to much out of a relationship because in my last one i didn't get the fulfillment i needed. he was fine with the way things were and it worked for us for awhile before i wanted more. as usual i always want what i either don't or can't have. 

now it comes down to i'm interested in a guy but things started out complicated. who knows what the hell will happen with that but i don't want to be a rebound thats for sure. then there is the big question is he even interested it in something with me? i honestly couldn't tell you.  

do you ever get the feeling that no matter how hard you try you are never good enough? yea well thats the story of my life. i never felt good enough in my past relationship and it always seems like there is someone better for the guys i'm interested in now. is there anyone out there that likes me for who i am not just passing time till something better comes along? i'm not model thin and tall. i never will be. i'm not the blond bombshell. i don't really want to be. i just want someone to like me. the short curvy little redhead with tons of opinions that she keeps to herself because she is afraid that no one will like her.....