no motivation...

i have no motivation to do anything. i'm sitting here listening to viva la vida (the only coldplay song i like) wishing i was back in my room curled up in bed with a great book and a movie playing in the background. but no i'm in the library about to start working on my bio exam re-take...can you say boring! but this girl needs the extra credit.

so i'm feeling better today. YAY. the angry outbursts of the past few days pushed to the back of my mind. fuck hormones, stress, and caffeine headaches. who needs them NOT ME. life would be so much easier if i could master the art of stoicism. emotional outbursts are not for me because i tend to be self-deprecating. i'm not good enough blah blah blah, when i'm not hormonal i don't doubt myself. i don't know what it is about my period that makes me think to damn much. i'm happy with who i am. i know most people wouldn't be able to tell that from the first post i made but i am truly happy with who i am. i know my flaws and weaknesses but i don't usually let them get in the way of my life. so what i'm not an overly confident person but guess what how many people can really say that they don't have problems with self-esteem, not many i'm betting. nearly every person i know has what they consider flaws that they don't like about themselves, the real trick is realizing these "flaws", whether real or imaginary, and not letting them influence the life the person leads in a negative way....