and for the million hours that we were i'd smile and remember it all and i'll turn and go...

so i should be working on the revision for my first essay but i'm just not really feeling it right now....but it's due tomorrow so i have to do it sometime. doesn't mean that has to be now. so instead of working on my paper i am going to recap what happened last night but you need a little background first.

i meet my friend through my boyfriend (at least thats what we will call him because thats a whole other complicated story) at that time a few years back. for me there was instant chemistry for him who knows. i was hanging out with my bf, his brother, and their friend. they practically grew up in the same house thats how good of friends they are but i digress. anyway as i said thought he was very attractive right off the bat. i didn't see him for about a year when he came to my bf's and his brothers new year's eve party. that was the second time seeing him. but he was hopped up on pain medication from a dislocated shoulder and then he had a drink. after the amazing meal that was cooked i was helping my friend that i had brought with me to the party try and convince her parents to let her spend the night because i was.  well he had decided he was going to leave. i tried to convince him to stay but he didn't but i asked for a hug before he left and i swear i thought he was going to kiss me, or at least he thought about it but he didn't. i honestly don't know if he even remembers the party because of the combo of medication and the drinks he had. but to say the least i have had a crush on the kid....

so he and i text off and on sometimes and we have tried to get together when we were both back in town but that never worked out his school breaks were always before mine...

anyway i sent him a funny text about rice and going to rocky horror on friday. well he texts me last night asking when i was going to be back in town and such and i told him thanksgiving. then he asked where i was (which i have told him once or twice before). so i told him i was in richmond he tells me that he has friends her and that he broke a rib here and then adds "if i don't get there before thanksgiving when you get home your mine" 

i was grinning like an idiot but my mind was kind of panicking. does he mean it. is it he just wants a casual hookup which im fine with for the most part, seeing as we are in two different locations and i trust him (which is a big thing for me). my main thing is i don't like not knowing what he is thinking but i guess thats a risk i'm willing to take. i mean just a few days ago i was bitching about having any type of physical relationship since oh i'd say february and then this pops up out of no where it seems.....i guess my mom was right it hit me when i wasn't really looking (damn i hate it when she's right sometimes)