bonding over cookies!

cookies and conversation tend to fix life's problems if only for a little while. i have friends and i know they care and might be a little worried but i will be okay. i have always had low self-esteem. i probably always will. i try and act like i don't but i do. sometimes it just comes out. but i know that i do have friends and people that care about me and my well being  and i appreciate it.

i can honestly say that i LOVE all of my friends--sarah, david, melissa, jane, allena, nora--they are just a few. i don't like to worry people when i get this way but sometimes i just have to learn to express myself and maybe for once in my life instead of worrying about everyone else and their problems, they can worry about me (not that my bouts of self-loathing last that long) for a little bit. that might seem a little selfish but sometimes i feel as though i expend all this energy trying to help others when it isn't really reciprocated (even though i know if i needed them I MEAN REALLY NEEDED THEM, they would be there in a heartbeat). that might sound a little conceited but i know that i put others before myself and sometimes i just need to stop and realize that i do need someone to lean on even if its just for an hour over cookies and milk (thank you melissa).

i love and cherish every one of my friends and i hope that they feel the same way about me....