"i seek you out, flay you alive, one more word and you won't survive...."

so its been a damn long time since i have posted anything...and lets just say i probably should have as a way to unload my thoughts. so here it goes:

i think i am more emotionally apathetic towards others than i ever have been. hell lets be real here i am emotionally closed off, i don't let hardly anyone get close because i have trust issues. i've been fucked over by people that i consider my friends and it makes me that more protective of the things i share with people. but apparently i have a loud mouth (i mean really come one i am not a regular chatty cathy). i was planning on sharing a piece of information with a friend (two weeks later but still i was sharing) turns out he already knew from an as yet unnamed source....now whether he believes me or not i didn't tell hardly anyone this information. and yea some of the things that he said to me did hurt but damn son its not like i go around telling the WHOLE world my buisness. the only way i can figure that he found out was that someone i told decided to share personal information (something that i shouldn't have said needed to be kept on the DL) with told someone he is in direct contact with as convoluted as that sounds. i'd like to know who it was (not that that will ever happen) so that i know who i have to keep my damn mouth shut around.