so its been a damn long time since i have posted anything...and lets just say i probably should have as a way to unload my thoughts. so here it goes:
i think i am more emotionally apathetic towards others than i ever have been. hell lets be real here i am emotionally closed off, i don't let hardly anyone get close because i have trust issues. i've been fucked over by people that i consider my friends and it makes me that more protective of the things i share with people. but apparently i have a loud mouth (i mean really come one i am not a regular chatty cathy). i was planning on sharing a piece of information with a friend (two weeks later but still i was sharing) turns out he already knew from an as yet unnamed source....now whether he believes me or not i didn't tell hardly anyone this information. and yea some of the things that he said to me did hurt but damn son its not like i go around telling the WHOLE world my buisness. the only way i can figure that he found out was that someone i told decided to share personal information (something that i shouldn't have said needed to be kept on the DL) with told someone he is in direct contact with as convoluted as that sounds. i'd like to know who it was (not that that will ever happen) so that i know who i have to keep my damn mouth shut around.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
"every word is a curse let loose on me, Your mouth it moves but fails to speak, and when you use your lips they better be on me!"
so it has been quite awhile since i have been on. but there isn't much going on worth talking about (at least in my opinion). so i'm just going to divide my life up into major categories and go from there:
school:
not much going on there. i spend most of my days especially during the week doing homework and studying. it's really paying off too. but sometimes i do get distracted by movies, tv shows, and music such as what i'm listening to now (the cab "bounce"). school seems to be dragging on though maybe its because i am going to my spanish class everyday and see the same people over and over again....i don't really know but more than a month of school should have passed by now.....
family:
for the most part things are going well there. my grandparents on my dad's side are having some health issues (but they are getting older so i guess its to be expected). it still threw me a little because they never share how sick or what kind of health issues they have until its really bad. i am going down to alabama with my mom over spring break to see my grandma. i haven't seen her in about a year so its about time for a visit. although i am not looking forward to the drive. i get out of class on friday the 6th of march to drive three hours home to botetourt (and probably run errands when i get there) then wake up at like 5am on saturday to go to atlanta (i don't know if we are staying at my uncles or just stopping eating then leaving again). i will spend my whole week down there then on friday end up in columbus georgia, leave georgia on saturday to hopefully get back to botetourt so that on sunday i can leave to drive three hours back to richmond........damn thats a LOT of time in a car.....
relationships:
OH MY GOD....i am super confused. MAJORLY confused. i swear no boys for the rest of my college days. i thought that you know who and i had potential and i made a hasty decision to firmly put him in the friend zone. now i don't know. i went home this past weekend and saw you know who (for those of you that are clued into my life you KNOW who i'm talking about). now we didn't hang out one-on-one, he was at macado's in salem and tripp and i were at macado's in roanoke. he had just gotten off work so we went by since i had to take tripp back to his house anyway. well the three of us went back to his apartment where we chilled for a bit but i ended up having to take a phone call (long story short we didn't see that much of each other). went out to doo's again the next night saw him for about thirty minutes.......but it was enough time to know that i still am attracted to him HARDCORE (at least physically). we didn't hang out long enough to talk.......but DAMN does he look good in a suit!
school:
not much going on there. i spend most of my days especially during the week doing homework and studying. it's really paying off too. but sometimes i do get distracted by movies, tv shows, and music such as what i'm listening to now (the cab "bounce"). school seems to be dragging on though maybe its because i am going to my spanish class everyday and see the same people over and over again....i don't really know but more than a month of school should have passed by now.....
family:
for the most part things are going well there. my grandparents on my dad's side are having some health issues (but they are getting older so i guess its to be expected). it still threw me a little because they never share how sick or what kind of health issues they have until its really bad. i am going down to alabama with my mom over spring break to see my grandma. i haven't seen her in about a year so its about time for a visit. although i am not looking forward to the drive. i get out of class on friday the 6th of march to drive three hours home to botetourt (and probably run errands when i get there) then wake up at like 5am on saturday to go to atlanta (i don't know if we are staying at my uncles or just stopping eating then leaving again). i will spend my whole week down there then on friday end up in columbus georgia, leave georgia on saturday to hopefully get back to botetourt so that on sunday i can leave to drive three hours back to richmond........damn thats a LOT of time in a car.....
relationships:
OH MY GOD....i am super confused. MAJORLY confused. i swear no boys for the rest of my college days. i thought that you know who and i had potential and i made a hasty decision to firmly put him in the friend zone. now i don't know. i went home this past weekend and saw you know who (for those of you that are clued into my life you KNOW who i'm talking about). now we didn't hang out one-on-one, he was at macado's in salem and tripp and i were at macado's in roanoke. he had just gotten off work so we went by since i had to take tripp back to his house anyway. well the three of us went back to his apartment where we chilled for a bit but i ended up having to take a phone call (long story short we didn't see that much of each other). went out to doo's again the next night saw him for about thirty minutes.......but it was enough time to know that i still am attracted to him HARDCORE (at least physically). we didn't hang out long enough to talk.......but DAMN does he look good in a suit!
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